I am sitting on a little chair in the corner of my bedroom. I feel like I could throw up. I just need to type out my feelings. So please this will be a blah blah blog post. Please stop reading if you like me.
I have to tell the marble guy to rip up the counters and replace them, they are unacceptable.
Why does confrontation make me ill. In high school I would let anyone who got in my way have it, Now I can't even stand up for something I have had to work very hard to pay for (cash at that).
The guy is bigger than me? No that is not the reason. Is it that I have not had to be ugly in so long that I have forget how? Do you just become a softie? Can it be I have learned to just settle? Maybe I need professional help. I always use the excuse that " Being ugly won't make the world better." Well it might make my kitchen look better.
When I built the house I had to settle with the first counter tops, and the crappy excuses. Now I feel like I am reliving that experience.
The difference I have now is it makes me sick, really IBS, chest pains
WHY WHY. I hate being nice!! Why can't I be a mean girl . I really don't care what people think. Now my palms are sweating. I wish he would be here already.
OMG, I just saw something out the corner of my eye looking in the window at me, a squirrel. Oh how cute. Now how can I pump myself up to be a B after seeing that? AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS TROUBLE BEING MEAN WHEN I NEED TO BE???
SUSIE WHERE ARE YOU??